Hot Mocca!...

My dear blog;

This is my lazy week, or maybe lazy month... I dun have the mood to do anything... even eat... er... wait... I have plenty of mood for eating...*kidding* hehehe... I wish I can lay down on my bed doing nuthing... and by the end of the month I still get my salary *eh?* hahaha I WISH!... Being alone all this week really make me unproductive...

I watched Zanthura alone last night... the movie impact was so-so... but the lilboy is cute...




I miss Robet already... he's at his hometown now (Ipoh) for chinese new year holiday... I know this is really not me... to write about my bf... but I don't know... with him I feel different... I know there will be some of my friend or maybe enemy will feel 'yucky' about this... but hey it's my life, my journal... I have the right to write whatever that I want... i dun want to act 'macho', pretend that i don't bother about relationship... I may be differ from you and I can't be you...

I watched Mocca last week, I know this is quite late to write about them... hehehee me with my lazy brain... Arena/Arina (don't know how to spell the name), she's amazing, adorable, cute, lovely... oh dear... she's superb!... I love her!... her voice, the way she talk... grrrrr... hahahha plus I love Mocca so much... and I miss listening to their song since Robet stuck the cassete in my player (until now it's still stuck in there)... *grrr*... But it's ok... I bought the new cd already... My Diaries... hehhe such a sweet voice... such a sweet melody... love them big time!...

I love the traffic now... hahah it's public holiday... so no jammed... *yipie*... I like to drive during this days... so tomorrow is the last day for the leisure in driving... the crowd will be back in Wednesday... what a lame...

I think I getting 'fatter' and 'fatter' everyday... hahaha... my office mate keep saying this word to me... my hips getting bigger and bigger... erghh... I can't fit my old jeans anymore... *geee*... if previous days I really want to gain my weight but today, hell no!... please stop growing Fara... please... but my mom like it... she's keep saying to my sis in law that I'm 'happy' now that's whyI gain my weight... *duh!*

I mentioned before that I got invitation from Nat to join her for Japan trip right? too bad I have to cancel... so no Japan... it's ok maybe next time...I did used all the money for something else... wanna know what is that 'something'?... hehehe secret! later, when everything is confirm I'll post another journal about 'it'... *post*

I wish I can kill myself...

My dear blog;

Today is disaster.... network failure!!!... Argh... I wish I'm vanish from this world... plus it's Chinese New Year... customer really want to use the line ... pity them... but what can I do... erghh!

Zai made this for me... she hopes this thing can cheer me up!.. ergh I wish!... but thanks Zai, it's so nice of you... it did cheer me up (for a few second) hahhaa... oh dear... when this network thingy will be resolves... *post*

The J town...

My dear blog;

I returned my mom's car last Thursday... I drove to Johore alone at 12pm and took the bus back to KL at 6.30pm... what a hectic day... so now I got my Nicky back... but he's not like before... his bumper is in black colour and the whole body is in gold... can you imagine how not handsome he is???.... *erghhh*

I can't wait for my salary day... i'm in an alert mode now... I have to pretend there's no Mcd next to my apartment... I have to close my eyes when I passed Sushi King... I have to budget... I really want to eat sushi badly... ergh.. I really really want it... yup! 27th is my off day... and Sushi King is the first place i'll go... *grins*


I have lots of plan for my bonus... it's 4 months salary... *yipie* What can u do with 4 months salary? *gulp* hahaha now I'm scared... suddenly Nat called me... herph.. guess what.. a trip to Japan.. *wink wink* Can you think what I'm thinking?... OMG... is it for real? I dunno... I have to grab my calculator and start to calculate my budget back... but I can't promise her... the answer maybe yes or no... but I hope for yes!... Nat, just hang on there... I'll let you know the result as soon as possible... *pray* Whoahhh!! if this is real... er.. er.. I dunno know what to say... I'm totally speechless... please gimme the right word to say *post*

Clueless...

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When shit happen and you're totally clueless what to do, what will u do? u just want to sit down by your own selve? or u want to look around to find some help?... I prefer to solve it my by myself since I don't want to make things complicated among me and other people... but I'm glad that I have Azah and Bard... they come without me to find them... I feel like screaming out loud... I understand if other people not understand... because the problem is mine not them... so who am I to force them to understand?... even my dad have change.. everything's not like before... am i feel free to tell my friends?... what will I get as response?... I don't know... and i don't even want to try... so I choose to sit silently... u know where to find me when u need me... *post*

The 'A'!!! The what??!!

My dear blog;

Accident!!!... I hate when this happen... I dun have the mood to write today... what can I say is... how to find the money to fix everything.. I wish I have a rich dad so that he can pay everything... erghhhhhh!!!! *post*

Nervous he is.....

My dear blog;

First of all I wanna wish all the Muslim 'Selamat Hari Raya Korban'... I have splendid celebration... my parents come over to my place... they brought me the food all the way from Johore... ketupat, sambal goreng, rendang, nasi tomato, ayam masak merah ect ect... *yummy!* I really miss my mom's cook and I really enjoyed the meal... but the best part is, this is the first time my parents meet Robet... hahahha... I can see his nervous face and he claim that he keeps going to the toilet before he went to my house... hahhahah.. it's so funny when he tried to act 'cool' and 'polite'.. out of sudden everything that came out from his mouth is in proper word... he came with the blue shirt that I bought for him... I love to see him in that shirt-ed... I wish I can take his picture with that nervous face... but I can't because I'm nervous too.... hahahha...

The best part is... my parents.... erghhh... at last!!!... they approve 'this one'... well, i'm the only daughter so for them to accept a 'guy' in my life is difficult... but as for Robet, he passed... *smile* My dad, he likes Robet character... my mom, she likes him because he tied his hair nicely... *phew!!!* I like guy with long hair but my mom don't... I'm glad she's ok with Robet's hair... *phew!!* I can feel the cockroach roaming inside my stomach and I dun know how to act but I bet Robet felt the same... This is the first time my dad sit down with me and talk about the 'guy' in my life... yeay! I'm not my daddy's lil girl anymore... I'm big girl now...

I pray hard... I hope everything will go as plan... I pray hard... hoping that tomorrow will be mine... *post*

Anger...

My dear blog;

I am mad... I really am... and I mean it... Dun ever break the promise or i'll change to an evil monster... *post*

'Vacation'... is what I need....

My dear blog;

I'm sick with the media and cops... I dun have the intend to watch any news or buy any newspaper anymore... there is no trust anymore... they like to point finger at the youth and I really feel sick of it... ohkehhhhh... I dun want to talk about it anymore... my hatred towards them are to the max...

I feel damn bored with my job now... inside my head there's no other word than 'QUIT'... but I just can't ... ergh... please please please I need some colours... right in front of me it's just black and white... and I really wanna puke...

I had headache almost everynight... It's comes right from my eyes towards to the back of my head... I dun know why... and I really wanna scream out loud... maybe it's because of my glasses... or maybe because of the aircond at my office.. it's damn cold.. and I shiver like hell... eventhough I'm wearing my hoody I still can feel the cold... the aircond comes straight to my head... I wish I can smash my head with hammer... *wish*

I watched The Wig yesterday... and it's damn scary... ergh.. there's lots of part that I dun have the guts to watch... I close my eyes with my hands and let the little tiny space between my fingers open for me to see the screen... and the funny part is there was a big size chinese guy who scream out loud like a girl... he just sat behind us... and he made the whole teather laugh...

Raya Haji just around the corner and I just have one day off which is on the 10th itself... my dad called me and ask... I dun know what to say since my off day only one day... I dun think so that i'll be going back to BP but I dun have the guts to say no... later I'll call him and explain... I hope he'll understand (that's why I hate my job now)

Azhar came to my cubicle and we had a small chat about vacation to an island... huh! I really need a vacation now... and island is a must... I can't wait for my bonus... so that I can plan my vacation.. If I dun have anyone to follow i'll be going alone... I don't care... I dun want to go to any city anymore... I really need something can cure my headache.. ergh!!... I can feel the pain... and I really need to off now... *post*