the dilemma of being repulsed...

my dear blog;



everhear the expression "damned if you do, damned if you dont?" ... it's the dilemma of being repulsed by something and attracted to it at the same time... like with coffee... people drink it for the taste, the buzz, the sensation of holding a warm mug in their chubby little hands, or even because sipping the stuff makes them feel intellectual... some people can't even begin their days without it... but there's the downside... caffein headaches when they don't get enough, yellowed teeth if they drink to much... it's a turn-on and an aggraution all at once... sort of the things that we know if we keep on doing it over and over again, it will cause you trouble... but deep inside you are in denial... and you know u will get hurt one day... and you keep repeating the same mistakes again... and because i have this stupid dumb ass brain... and i'm not smart enough to think or maybe... maybe i refuse to think... i keep on drinking 'caffein'...

yup!... guys, 'caffein' is not good for your health...

trust me!



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honey in the sun ...

my dear blog;

:)



camera obscura
honey in the sun...


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freaking climax!!!

my dear blog;

"ever changing, growing, and searching
through stretches of time beyond life and death
this is the journey that every soul makers,
my journey always brings me to
the place between wake and sleep,
a landscape of memories,
where you and i meet again and again,
even in the darkest night, in the heaviest storm,
i always find my way back to you,
when you remember, please come back to the place we both know..."

the battle to heaven
mono

mono is coming back to town... yup! live in KL next year... i just can't WAIT!!!

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erk!

My dear blog;

baru aku prasan, aku update blog hari hari...

wahhmuhahahhahahhaha!!! gila drama!!!



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redemption song...

my dear blog;

kalau aku diberi pilihan, aku memilih utk ada time machine so that aku boleh putar masa untuk tidak make a move seperti mana yang telah aku buat dulu... tapi itu sangat cliche lah!... a fren of mine kata, benda benda tu semua is part of learning curve untuk hidup kita to become a better person... tapi aku cakap kat dia, mcm dah byk learning curve yang aku lalu... nak jugak aku rehat kejap utk graduate from those sickening learning curve tu... dia jeling aku, aku tau dia tak suka...

recently, aku selalu rujuk chapter chapter learning curve hidup aku pada dia... dia dengar, angguk, diam, response... jarang aku dengar reponse dia sebab aku mmg dilahirkan 'sedikit' degil... tapi kali ni aku mcm sedikit setuju... walaupun a fren of mine cakap aku kena setuju semua apa yang dia kata...

aku dah bosan dengan semua benda benda kat sekeliling aku sekarang... benda yang sama berulang ulang... dah pergi, datang balik... dah datang, pergi balik... it's like a never ending story... a fren of mine cakap hati aku kaler pink!... hahah... dia kata aku baik sangat, cepat forgive and forget... aku diam... tapi aku tak cakap sebenarnya kaler hati aku bukan pink... it's just aku percaya yang... satu hari aku akan dapat redemption utk semua kebajikan kebajikan percuma yang aku buat pada dia, dia dan dia...

aku pandang muka a fren of mine, aku cakap perlahan "takpelah... one day, i believe one fine day... aku akan dapat redemption yang aku tunggu tunggu... tuhan akan turun kan dia dari langit... untuk aku..."


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tidak sihat...

my dear blog;

masih demam . otak penat . need vacation

{ruang makin sempit dan aku perlu space}


i need a break!



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it's about time! and i mean NOW!

my dear blog;

sempit . sesak . senak {itu yang hati aku rasa sekarang}

a friend of mine beritahu aku yang aku perlu hentikan apa yang aku sedang buat sekarang... kalau dulu aku degil dan aku yakin aku mampu merubah keadaan... tapi jelas kalau berusaha seorang saja takan menjadi...

jelas jelas depan mata je, tapi aku tak nampak atau buat buat tak nampak... jadi aku rasa usaha sia sia aku nih aku harus hentikan, tarik handbreak... tak payah nak toleh toleh belakang...

a friend of mine juga kata... dengan jelas usaha aku mmg sia sia kalau terpaksa berurusan dengan orang yang takda hati... yang hanya tahu nilai kau itu ini... tapi diri sendiri?...

a friend of mine juga dah berkali kali ingatkan aku... jangan! jangan! jangan!... sudah! sudah! sudah!... dan aku rasa ini la masa nya... hentikan segala usaha menjaga hati orang yang tak tau nak appreciate kita...

yeah! it's about time...
and i guess this is the perfect time...



nota kaki : masih lagi mendengar shining light - ash tanpa henti


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shining light...

my dear blog;

how weird it is when i keep listening to Shining Light – Ash, over and over again… for 2 days without fail... only this one song in my itunes track...

herph… i guess it’s about time…


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