kissing the lipless...

my dear blog;

entahla mcm tak faham.... bila dah cuba nak faham... tiba tiba mcm lagi susah nak faham.... macam ada sedikit penat... tapi biasala aku... kunyah dan telan sahaja... selalu berkata 'tidak apa'... selalu menenangkan hati... cuba nak fahami... mungkin aku sudah 'heartless'... atau mungkin di sana yg 'heartless'... merasa yang benda itu tidak apa... tapi aku? lihat, tonton dan senyum? senyum ajakah yang mampu aku buat?... atau aku sahaja seorang ratu drama... ahhhh! alangkah mudahnya kalau aku boleh berkata selamba... aku tak suka itu dan ini... tanpa fikir rasionalnya permintaan aku itu... entahla, sebelum berkata selalu nya aku akan diam dan fikir baik baik... hendak bercakap tentang ini sanggup aku tukarkan kepada yang itu... sebab aku adalah penjaga hati... ya itu aku, penjaga hati orang, bukan hati sendiri... *tak paham? sila abaikan sebab ini tidak ada kena mengena pada sesiapa*


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is it normal?... or it's just me?...

my dear blog;

i don't feel right... i don't know why... i have good instinct and its never failed me... but this time, should i trust it?... or is it the same thing, the same cycle and the same lame lie?... *dear GOD, please show me the sign*



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kenapa ubat dicipta punya rasa yang tak sedap?

my dear blog;

muka panas...
hidung sumbat...
pening kepala...
hidung rasa cam nak meletup...


yup! aku DEMAM! *takmo makan ubat bleh tak?*


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the reality bites...

my dear blog;

the fun is over… i need to pull the hand break and wake up… this is the reality that I have to face and no more fantasies… like what i wrote before, i think about many things lately… but i guess i have to take care of my heart more… and think about my priority in life… ahhh silly me… i know about the risk from the first day i say yes to myself… so this is it… face it and swallow it slowly… yup! smile more even though it’s a fake one… *smile*


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the unsolved mysteries...

my dear blog;

i wonder, where can i buy time to develope this... it's been ages... *sigh*

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hujan dah turun... tapi kenapa hati masih tak tenang???...

my dear blog;



hujan turun lebat tadi... sengaja aku keluarkan kepala di birai tingkap bilik... sejuk... out of sudden, i feel like i wanna cry... crap! "why?" i asked myself... i've been thinking about many things lately... about what will i do tomorrow... about what will happen next... about what had happened... about the secret that i keep... about the risk that i take... about the things that i worried of... about how to take care of my own heart because to please other people is not that easy... almost about everything... the more than 1 hour conversation with a friend really make me relief... a huge relief... she said "you are the chosen one... tuhan turun kan dugaan tu untuk org yang terpilih je... benda benda nih semua akan buat kau jadi lebih matang"... thanks dear... i owe u one *hugs*... being a jobless for nearly 3 months is not a good thing to me and i believe to other people too... freelance job is not enough for a person who have the commitment like me... but i know.... satu hari nanti everything will be smooth... much better than before... mungkin akan menjadi terlebih lebih baik dari sekarang... i pray hard for this... i really am... *smile*... to me its just a phase for me to be a better person... menjadi orang yang lebih kuat ... i know i can get through this... i know... everything will be ok... everything will be back on track soon... *amin*

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hell yeah!!! another good news for coffee lover!!!

my dear blog;

ahhhhhh~ *sipping my vanilla latte*


by Lucy Danziger, SELF Editor-in-Chief a Yahoo! Health
Expert for Women's Health

9 Reasons to Drink More Coffee!

It helps you shed pounds
People who drank more metabolism-firing caffeine gained less weight over 12 years than those who cut back on the coffee, say researchers at the Harvard School of Public Health in Boston.


It powers your workouts
Downing coffee and toast between back-to-back workouts can keep you humming, a study from the Journal of Applied Physiology reports. Athletes who drank a caffeinated carbohydrate beverage after cycling had 66 percent more glycogen (an energy reserve) in their muscles than those who had a caffeine-free version. Replenishing glycogen helps you go farther and faster in your next session. Do you run on caffeine?


It helps you wake up refreshed
Drinking a cup of coffee immediately before taking a 15- to 30-minute catnap can leave you alert and rested after waking up, according to research from The Sleep Research Centre, Loughborough University in Leicestershire, England. Caffeine takes a half hour to kick in, so it will rouse you after a short snooze. Try these tips to sleep your way gorgeous.


It can ward off illness
Increasing your coffee intake may prevent liver cancer, The National Institute of Environmental Medicine in Stockholm, Sweden, finds. Two cups of java daily lowered a person's risk by 43 percent on average. In another study from University of Minnesota at Minneapolis, women who drank coffee had a 24 percent lower risk of dying from heart disease and other inflammatory conditions. Antioxidants in coffee are likely behind the protective benefits.


It can ease muscle cramps
Women who had the caffeine equivalent of two cups of coffee the day after their quadriceps were stimulated (as if they'd done squats) felt 48 percent less leg pain within an hour, research from the University of Georgia in Athens reveals. Caffeine may block the body's receptors for the ouch-causing chemical adenosine, scientists speculate.


It makes cardio feel like a cinch
Women given the caffeine equivalent of about two cups of coffee an hour before cycling reported 40 percent less pain than those who went decaf, according to a study from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. Caffeine seems to block neurotransmitters that signal discomfort during exercise, researchers say.


It helps you get want you want
Dealing with a difficult person? Broach a tough topic over a cup of joe. Caffeine may make people more open to persuasion, the European Journal of Social Psychology notes. Researchers say it hones cognitive function, causing skeptics to be more receptive to a convincing case.


It may fight breast cancer
Young women drinking four or more cups of caffeinated coffee daily reduced their breast cancer risk by 40 percent compared with nondrinkers, a study in the Journal of Nutrition finds. The caffeine and polyphenols in regular coffee protect against cancer. Worried about getting the jitters? Even two cups every day can help. And try these risk-reducing recipes as well.


It improves recall!
Caffeine perks up short-term memory, a study from the Medical University of Innsbruck in Austria reveals. One cup of coffee may be all it takes; drink it before a big meeting to be your sharpest.


Want a delicious, lowfat treat that packs coffee's powerful punch? Bake up a batch of warm chocolate cakes with coffee creme anglaise. *yowzaaa!!!*


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fara and he met after she bought him a cute lion face t-shirt from malacca *buat muka ngade*...

my dear blog;



1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)


note: you tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not... you make me feel good when i hurt so bad... thanks dear love *smile*

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rindu...

my dear blog;

sesungguh nya aku amat rindukan moment moment ini:

banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi tak larat... selebihnya di facebook hahaha... tak sabar nak tunggu next event!!!!

note: gamba sekitar Jelajah Malaysia 2009... ini di finish line di Genting

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the question they asked...

my dear blog;

the answer to the question ... "are u happy?" - YES!


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leaving the state...

my dear blog;

... for 8 days... wish me luck! *smile*

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note: gosh! miss someone so badly... i know both of us hoping for miracle to happen... kalau tuhan sudah tulis begitu...insyaallah we will find our happiness... just pray hard ok...

the fact is...

my dear blog;

... i'm jobless and busy with the job hunting... so this blog will be on hiatus mode for a while... will be back once everything is back on track... oh dear i want my life back...


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hello sweet april...

my dear blog;

1st:
march is not a good month for me… yeah shit happens but deep inside i feel extremely happy… and huge relief…

2nd:
i wish that everything will back on track as the soonest…

3rd:

i’m hopping for something that impossible to happen… and I wish that everything is as simple as it's suppose to be… *sigh*

4th:
yup, April… such a sweet month for me… an amazing adrenalin boosting event… a new adventure... a new addiction i guess… :)

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hot balloon... hot! heat! bang! bang!...

my dear blog;

selain dari mencuci mata... dan cuaca panas terik... dan aku sangat berharap aku masih berumur 21 tahun jadi aku masih boleh bermain mata dengan adik adik cute *sila refer ayat mencuci mata*... akhirnya hasil yang aku dapat seperti di bawah ini:

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:) ...

my dear blog;

smile a lot...
it costs nothing and is beyond price...


:)


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to let go...

my dear blog;

when everything is done... i will say the word ‘goodbye’...


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i'm addicted...

my dear blog;

bunyi ombak... bau laut... para backpackers yg ramah... pasir putih halus... bahang laut... hutan coral indah di dasar laut... cukup buat aku tenang dan lupa semua benda yang membebankan aku dan hidup aku yang sedikit dalam denial untuk satu dua hal... aku sudah ketagih dan aku akan kembali...

the tables at one of the beach club. cool huh?!

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mutual addiction...

my dear blog;

what i want is to be needed... what i need is to be indispensable to somebody... who i need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention... somebody addicted to me.... a mutual addiction...

note: via sixthsense

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mencuri masa...

my dear blog;

setelah saban hari mengadap screen bewarna biru... setelah saban hari mengadap coding coding statik yang memedihkan mata tak salah kan kalau lari sebentar ke pantai... tak sabar rasanya... harap harap semuanya berjalan dgn lancar... *post*

deeper conversation...

my dear blog;


Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears and
Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too....

Yuna - Deeper Conversation


i'm watching you from far... hope you doing well... can't wait for the next coversation... and can't wait for the next good surprise... *smile*