hujan dah turun... tapi kenapa hati masih tak tenang???...

my dear blog;



hujan turun lebat tadi... sengaja aku keluarkan kepala di birai tingkap bilik... sejuk... out of sudden, i feel like i wanna cry... crap! "why?" i asked myself... i've been thinking about many things lately... about what will i do tomorrow... about what will happen next... about what had happened... about the secret that i keep... about the risk that i take... about the things that i worried of... about how to take care of my own heart because to please other people is not that easy... almost about everything... the more than 1 hour conversation with a friend really make me relief... a huge relief... she said "you are the chosen one... tuhan turun kan dugaan tu untuk org yang terpilih je... benda benda nih semua akan buat kau jadi lebih matang"... thanks dear... i owe u one *hugs*... being a jobless for nearly 3 months is not a good thing to me and i believe to other people too... freelance job is not enough for a person who have the commitment like me... but i know.... satu hari nanti everything will be smooth... much better than before... mungkin akan menjadi terlebih lebih baik dari sekarang... i pray hard for this... i really am... *smile*... to me its just a phase for me to be a better person... menjadi orang yang lebih kuat ... i know i can get through this... i know... everything will be ok... everything will be back on track soon... *amin*

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