it`s been a while huh?

ruin...

my dear blog,

"ruin is a gift...
ruin is the road for transformation..."
//{ruin}

from my lil red note book



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my lil red note book...

my dear blog,

herph... saya penah beli buku nota kecil di ikea beberapa tahun lalu, dulu saya rajin tulis apa apa yg terlintas di kepala saya, small notes from the book that i read, interesting wordings from the movie that i watched etc, apa apa saja la yang rasa rasa nak tulis, even budget bulanan dan bila saya benci seseorg mmg habis la saya conteng kat buku nota merah tu (semestinya saya tak tulis di sini).

semalam saya kemas2 bilik komputer saya a.k.a bilik kerja saya, haha! mmg bersepah, sebb masih byk barang2 yg kat dalam kotak lagi (berpindah dari rumah 2 tingkat ke apartment kecil - byk barang terlebih) . saya buka balik, baca selai2 apa yg saya tulis dlm tuh hahaha! ini nota2 kecil yang dari 5 tahun lepas (kira2) jadi ada yg kelaka, yg buat saya kembali marah dan sedih.

tapi saya rasa sudah tiba masa saya share sedkit nota2 kecil dlm buku nota merah yg kecil dan comel tu di sini. nanti la bila ada masa saya post, sekarang kerja sangat membebankan, saya penat buat benda yang berulang ulang dan membosan kan. i need a new adventure, a new job? neahhh!!! i just can't wait to start my own business (apsal la loan bank ni lambat sgt nak approve) .

{wish me luck}

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alhamdulillah...

my dear blog,

a next step in my career move {senyum}

"alhamdulillah"


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arch[it]ect...

my dear blog;

my mom once asked;
"kalau ada bf nak bf keje apa?"

answer : architect mcm ted mosby hahahahha!


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lets turn something random and turn into something awsome :) ...

my dear blog;

"it all began with a simple confession
you had an urge to kiss me and
i was on the verge to miss you
and it happen..."

but i guess it’s not the right time, and i hope we can just be friend… :)
but when the time will come, it will...
just give me some times...

[smile]


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sometimes [re-post]...

my dear blog,


"i miss you...
not the miss like getting a relationship...
it’s just i miss you..."

-robyn-
how i met your mother

::#nowlistening to sometimes by ash::


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Colourama 2010 [091010 is the day to remember!!]

my dear blog,

Colourama 2010 - Promo Video from Colourama Event on Vimeo.

Video by Fariz Hanapiah (motiofixo.com)

Welcome to the second installment of COLOURAMA (held biennially), an event dedicated to the best and brightest from the realm of 8bit music and its related disciplines. The event showcases the use of the former heavyweight champions of computing; Commodore 64 and Amiga, Atari ST and 2600, Nintendo Entertainment System and Game Boy - all this in the form of audiovisual experience.

This event was and still is the platform for chiptune music, the first and still the only one in Malaysia but done at an international standard. Not only we features the local heroes but also our regional and international comrades too! COLOURAMA is not just a place to exchange ideas between the musicians but also to expose our kind of music, no matter how niche to new audience.

COLOURAMA has always been about combining the music and visuals to give the audience a euphoric experience that intertwines the nostalgic and fresh feelings. It is after all; based on hey days of 8bit era (1982 – 1990) and we really mean it.

Our love for all things 8bit, from the games to its culture extends to the realisation of this event. It shows with our selection of musicians and visual artists. We will revisit the days where we were constantly challenging ourselves with technology limitations. As for 2010, we are bringing you the best from Malaysia, Indonesia, Singapore and France. Lo and behold!

For more info: colourama.asia



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HIMYM...

my dear blog,

"i miss you...

not the miss like getting a relationship...

it’s just i miss you..."

-robyn-

how i met your mother

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puasakah kita?

my dear blog,

agak lama tak update...

selamat berpuasa semua... recently aku mcm malas nak update sebab... sebab... haha takde sebab... sebb aku agak bz dgn grobok (bz la sgt) hahaha baru je lepas presentation dgn kementerian... result? haha entah tgh berdebar tunggu...

herm... bulan puasa... benda tak best selalu jadi kat aku nak dekat2 bulan puasa... (tak nak bukak buku lama) , tapi tahun nih alhamdulillah... semua nye ok... mungkin aku takde attach dgn siapa2 buat masa nih... aku rasa skang lagi better kot ahahhaha!! gile la dah nak masuk 2 taun single 'ready to mingle' haha part ready to mingle tu takde la sgt... tapi semua ok ok aje... aku malas nak komen byk2 sebb aku taknak benda yang aku cakap akan berbalik kat aku balik... yelah mcm karma... buat baik dibalas baik, buat jahat dibalas jahat... paling takut kalau benda tu jadi sebb tuhan kalau nak tunjukan kuasa-Nya sekali petik je jadi... lagi satu doa org2 yg teraniaya adalah doa yg paling makbul.. jadi stop hurting someone's heart (apa yg aku cuba buat dlm bulan puasa ni) dan juga buat yang berkenaan dan yg tak sewaktu dgn nya... ahahahaha! cubit kulit sendiri, sendiri rasala (ok, merepek!)

dlm dunia yg serba canggih sekarang, apa yg kita cuba sorok pasti akan diketahui juga... dah nama world wide web ... tak ke wide tuh? aku diam, dan lihat ajala.. semoga 'peristiwa' itu menjadi tauladan dan pengajaran... kehidupan kan satu pembelajaran untuk menjadi org yang berguna dan dewasa... jadi belajarla... dan jangan la kita terlalu lantang memberi statement tanpa mengambil kira org yg di inputkan statement tuh merasa kecil atau hancur hati nya... tak tergamak aku untuk tersenyum atau bertepuk tangan gembira.. aku cuma jadikan nya sebagai pengajaran kepada diri sendiri yang kita kena sedar tinggi rendah langit yang kita junjung dan sentiasa mengikut resam padi yg masak... just keep it low and be humble...

sekarang ni aku nak diam diam aje... silence audience... silence is bliss (some said) , aku doakan yg baik baik aje... sebb i've been there and i know how the feel to be in that place... sometimes kita kena turunkan ego kita, yelah just keep it down and be humble...

ok sebelum tahap merepek aku lebih berlanjutan dan mengundang kecil hati ke sesetengah pihak, better aku stop...

may this ramadhan be as bright as ever, may this ramadhan bring joy, health and wealth to you... happy ramadhan al mubarak.....


notakaki : aku tak bleh tido sebenarnya....


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kula shaker...

my dear blog,

kalau ada yg cancel tak jadi pergi and nak jual ticket tu sila ym saya ye...

ym : farathebugbuster

thanking you in advance


Note : Nevermind, we decided not to go anyway :)


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in the making...

my dear blog,




good times for a change
see, the luck I've had
can make a good man
turn bad

so please please please
let me, let me, let me
let me get what I want
this time

haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life I've had
can make a good man bad

so for once in my life
let me get what I want
lord knows, it would be the first time
lord knows, it would be the first time


song: please please please let me get what i want
by the smiths


note: i need magic this time *pray hard*


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once in a while, in my busy life... i do think about you... and all the fun and jokes that we used to laugh together...

my dear blog,

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

By E E Cummings


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ahad...

my dear blog;

agenda : tennis inter-c games final (HP vs Shell)
location : PERMATA, bangi
situation : super nervous!!


+wish.me.luck+


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the result...

my dear blog,

alhamdulillah..
we won today's match... the final will be on the next sunday... yeah yaw!


nota:kulit saya sudah kembali kelabu :(


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8.3 hrs...

my dear blog,

location : PERMATA, bangi
agenda: inter-c shell tennis tournament

another 8.3 hrs... after so many years... i'm gonna meet the tennis court again... DEMMIT! i never feel so nervous like this before... ergh! i hope that everything will be ok... i hope that i still can hit the ball right and have the energy to run left and right of the court...

wish me luck!


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one day, i'm gonna be a beautiful butterfly...

my dear blog;

when everything falls apart... we will think that, this is the end of the world... but just think about it... it's just a new beginning... a good beginning...

{smile}


note: i see rainbow today :)


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busy mode [ON] ...

my dear blog;

pagi ini bila saya memandu ke office sengaja saya off kan penyaman udara, saya bukak tingkap luas2 biarkan kan angin pagi masuk… sejuk, tapi mcm ada satu rasa aman… mata ada sedikit pedih, mungkin sebb tak cukup tido, mana tak nya balik kerja semalam malam pon dah pukul 2.30 pagi, sekarang jam 7 pagi dah duduk di cubicle office… sejak akhir2 ni mmg agak sibuk, hectic sesaja… tapi takpe, saya suka busy, saya suka bila saya teramat amat busy so that I dun have to think the unnecessarily things… life will be much more easier… kalau boleh weekend pon nak keje… saya nak busy hari2… weekend ni pon saya buka meja berniaga di frinjan, setiap jumaat saya ada di tennis court di mmu, training… saya dah main tennis balik dan saya dah mula intai2 kelas music dan tgk schedule saya kalau boleh selit2 masa, tak tau la, mungkin nak sambung balik kelas piano yg dah terbengkalai sejak habis sekolah dulu atau belajar main alat music yang lain… tgk je la nanti… masih tak sure…

sekarang saya nak jadi satu, satu individu sahaja, dlm konteks individu tu hanya ada saya… saya seorang sahaja… kalau boleh saya mau kotak2 tarikh di organizer saya penuh dgn hal2 yang berkaitan dengan kerja… cukup lah semua input dan output yang memeningkan kepala saya selama ni… saya rasa berdiam diri adalah lebih baik…

i just want everything is in the right place and everyone is happy…


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this one is for you...

my dear blog;

hai sayang.... marila kita pergi tengok wayang!

hahahaha... apala... anyway today (tgk jam dah masuk hari baru) ok, ok, actualy yesterday was my other half's birthday... sayam bayam, happy birthday la la la la la *hugs* - ini di taip di sms masa wish tadi- i'm so so so so soooooo sorry ye... sorry lambat wish, lately i'm damn busy.. kerja yang sangat ramai buat saya hilang ingatan seketika... tapi... TAPI! u tetap dlm hati i... kalau dgr mp3 yg penuh dgn lagu keepsake i tringat kat u... kalau nampak keta kancil kaler gold pon i tringat kat u... apa lagi? apa lagi? byk okeh!!! nak nak bila masa kita mcm tak ingat dunia travel sana sini ala last last minit... herph... dearie, deep inside u are the one who make me strong... I LOVE YOU VERY STRONG lah!!!!

Helda Shanaz Abd Halim, happy birthday!!!! *peluk kuat2*


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the truth is, i'm freaking broke... please help me to pay my bills...

my dear blog;

the status for my YM starting last night… but the funny part was... a friend of mine… and we just met one time, itupon ramai2 and we don’t chat that much… i just say hi when i arrived at the cafe and bye when i left to home… but last night he buzzed me at YM and asked me

a friend of mine : kau nak bayar bill apa?
me : kenapa? kau nak tolong bayarkan ke? *gurau kering di pagi buta*
a friend of mine : bak account number kau, aku dah bukak maybank2u nih
me : err.. sila la beli baju, jgn kasik aku segan boleh tak
a friend of mine : apa nak segan.. what comes around goes around…
me : *aku bagi account number because i have this thought that he just joke around nak buat kelaka di pagi pagi buta*

a friend of mine : ok dah transfer sila pergi bayar bill

i was speechless and i can’t explain in words… oh dear… aku mmg tak sangka…

me : kenapa kau baik sangat?
a friend of mine : pergi bayar bill kau...

terima kasih kawan… nanti kalau grobok dah bukak aku kasik kau baju ye… kira kau beli baju dari aku la jugak ok…

pengajaran : kadang2 org yg kita tak brp kenal lagi baik dari org yg kita sgt sgt kenal dan kita ingat dia sgt baik *kenyit mata*


{please help me to pay my bills}


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