Wednesday, December 30, 2009

a sad week [II] ...

my dear blog;

it's a sad sad sad week for me... like a seriously sad... the kinda sad that i couldn't explain in words... the inner feeling that i can't show with my face expression... the feel is so damn deep... that i couldn't reach to cure it... what am i doing all this while... i put myself to a place that i should not be... i hope this gonna be gone soon... as faster as the wind blow... without me notice that it's over, full stop, a dot... all i need to know, when i wake up, i already at the different world with a different new life...


+ i'm at the freeway now... it's up to me to turn to which exit... +




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a sad week...

my dear blog;

it's a sad week to me...

semoga roh wan (nenek) berada di tempat org2 yg beriman... *amin*...


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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

the ugly truth is

my dear blog;

i was born to be a savior and my middle name is

+ s a c r i f i c e +


A sacrifice you make today
Will never ever be gone
A sacrifice you make today
Will soon be passed on

A sacrifice you make today
Will stay in many hearts
A sacrifice you make today
Help many play their parts

A sacrifice you make today
Will never be forgotten
A sacrifice you make today
Will never be mistaken

A sacrifice you make today
May even change history
A sacrifice you make today
May be kept in someone’s memory

A sacrifice you make today
Might light someone’s day up
A sacrifice you make today
Might fill someone’s dry cup

A sacrifice you make today
Will always be treasured
A sacrifice you make today
Will always be remembered

note: poem via Anders Lim



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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

mumbling the mumble...

my dear blog;

kerja...

semakin strict, semakin stress... setitik silap pon takbleh nak kompromi... hari hari balik rasa risau, kalau kalau esok ada silap yang dijumpa... sejak dua menjak rasa mcm hati tak tenang, kenapa eh?... kerja kah?... entah la...

high expectation...
aku pada diri sendiri, takut tak tercapai jek... nanti mesti sedih...

a good listener...
that's what i need now... are you?

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

a reminder for you...

my dear blog;


+ saya mau ini untuk ulang tahun saya yang bakal tiba +



"please... please... pleasssseeeee..." hahahahha!

note:lagu nih dah berada dlm kepala sejak beberapa minggu yang lalu... adehh!



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i was born to be a miss take...

my dear blog;


+ the sky belongs to the stars +




note: picture via LoMo







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Thursday, December 10, 2009

bila dah mula bercakap dengan dinding....

my dear blog;

agak stress dengan kerja... kalau dulu ada je biro pengaduan yang setia dengar rungutan rungutan aku... cakap la pasal apa, dia akan dengar, response lepas tuh buat lawak sengal... walaupun aku call lewat malam, tapi itu dulu, beberapa tahun dulu, jadi tak perlula ungkit citer dulu... gile tak best...

seriously, dua tiga menjak ni aku rasa mcm tak larat... tgk surat2 komitmen minta di totalkan jumlah angka angka... itu tak kira yg bakal di tambah untuk tahun depan... haish... aku pernah berbual pasal tujuan berkerja dengan a friend of mine... kita kerja untuk bayar komitmen, kita kerja utk kurangkan jumlah angka yang kita perlu hadap setiap bulan... sampai bila?... puaskah dengan kerja kita sekarang? tentula tak puas... manusia itukan dilahirkan dengan rasa yang tak pernah puas... lepas satu satu yang di mahu... tapi seriously aku pernah terfikir utk migrate... cuma tak cukup guts aja... dulu, 2 tahun dulu hampir dapat, interview sampai 5 level, sampai ke level 5, entah mana silapnya kompeni tuh senyap jek... kalau tak dah di UK aku... mungkin aku buat tak sepenuh hati sebb fikirkan pasal org lain... haish... dah! jgn nak salahkan org...

2010? sudah dilevel manakah aku?... kerja? life? aku rasa dah sampai masa untuk rangka strategi baru... kena rombak semua benda... dah la baik tido melalut sampai ke pagi pon tak guna... esok ada 2 extraction, tak tau mcmana nak layan dengan system yang slow mcm siput, opis jek baru kaler purple bagai... tapi... haishhhhh... esok kena semangat berlebihan... bak kata biro pengaduan aku dulu "hadapi dengan senyuman"... aku tau, cliche kan? bosan...


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Wednesday, December 02, 2009

between those lines...

my dear blog;

i’ve been nice these days… not taking seriously about everything that i saw and knew… so i choose to keep it to myself and give you time to open your mouth and tell me what had happen actually or what’s happening now… because i know making assumption is not good at all… and i want to hear it from you, yourself… not from other people and not from that bloody world wide web…

one day we need to have a serious talk about this… until now, neither me nor you, know what we are doing right now…

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