kula shaker...

my dear blog,

kalau ada yg cancel tak jadi pergi and nak jual ticket tu sila ym saya ye...

ym : farathebugbuster

thanking you in advance


Note : Nevermind, we decided not to go anyway :)


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in the making...

my dear blog,




good times for a change
see, the luck I've had
can make a good man
turn bad

so please please please
let me, let me, let me
let me get what I want
this time

haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life I've had
can make a good man bad

so for once in my life
let me get what I want
lord knows, it would be the first time
lord knows, it would be the first time


song: please please please let me get what i want
by the smiths


note: i need magic this time *pray hard*


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once in a while, in my busy life... i do think about you... and all the fun and jokes that we used to laugh together...

my dear blog,

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

By E E Cummings


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ahad...

my dear blog;

agenda : tennis inter-c games final (HP vs Shell)
location : PERMATA, bangi
situation : super nervous!!


+wish.me.luck+


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the result...

my dear blog,

alhamdulillah..
we won today's match... the final will be on the next sunday... yeah yaw!


nota:kulit saya sudah kembali kelabu :(


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8.3 hrs...

my dear blog,

location : PERMATA, bangi
agenda: inter-c shell tennis tournament

another 8.3 hrs... after so many years... i'm gonna meet the tennis court again... DEMMIT! i never feel so nervous like this before... ergh! i hope that everything will be ok... i hope that i still can hit the ball right and have the energy to run left and right of the court...

wish me luck!


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one day, i'm gonna be a beautiful butterfly...

my dear blog;

when everything falls apart... we will think that, this is the end of the world... but just think about it... it's just a new beginning... a good beginning...

{smile}


note: i see rainbow today :)


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busy mode [ON] ...

my dear blog;

pagi ini bila saya memandu ke office sengaja saya off kan penyaman udara, saya bukak tingkap luas2 biarkan kan angin pagi masuk… sejuk, tapi mcm ada satu rasa aman… mata ada sedikit pedih, mungkin sebb tak cukup tido, mana tak nya balik kerja semalam malam pon dah pukul 2.30 pagi, sekarang jam 7 pagi dah duduk di cubicle office… sejak akhir2 ni mmg agak sibuk, hectic sesaja… tapi takpe, saya suka busy, saya suka bila saya teramat amat busy so that I dun have to think the unnecessarily things… life will be much more easier… kalau boleh weekend pon nak keje… saya nak busy hari2… weekend ni pon saya buka meja berniaga di frinjan, setiap jumaat saya ada di tennis court di mmu, training… saya dah main tennis balik dan saya dah mula intai2 kelas music dan tgk schedule saya kalau boleh selit2 masa, tak tau la, mungkin nak sambung balik kelas piano yg dah terbengkalai sejak habis sekolah dulu atau belajar main alat music yang lain… tgk je la nanti… masih tak sure…

sekarang saya nak jadi satu, satu individu sahaja, dlm konteks individu tu hanya ada saya… saya seorang sahaja… kalau boleh saya mau kotak2 tarikh di organizer saya penuh dgn hal2 yang berkaitan dengan kerja… cukup lah semua input dan output yang memeningkan kepala saya selama ni… saya rasa berdiam diri adalah lebih baik…

i just want everything is in the right place and everyone is happy…


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this one is for you...

my dear blog;

hai sayang.... marila kita pergi tengok wayang!

hahahaha... apala... anyway today (tgk jam dah masuk hari baru) ok, ok, actualy yesterday was my other half's birthday... sayam bayam, happy birthday la la la la la *hugs* - ini di taip di sms masa wish tadi- i'm so so so so soooooo sorry ye... sorry lambat wish, lately i'm damn busy.. kerja yang sangat ramai buat saya hilang ingatan seketika... tapi... TAPI! u tetap dlm hati i... kalau dgr mp3 yg penuh dgn lagu keepsake i tringat kat u... kalau nampak keta kancil kaler gold pon i tringat kat u... apa lagi? apa lagi? byk okeh!!! nak nak bila masa kita mcm tak ingat dunia travel sana sini ala last last minit... herph... dearie, deep inside u are the one who make me strong... I LOVE YOU VERY STRONG lah!!!!

Helda Shanaz Abd Halim, happy birthday!!!! *peluk kuat2*


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the truth is, i'm freaking broke... please help me to pay my bills...

my dear blog;

the status for my YM starting last night… but the funny part was... a friend of mine… and we just met one time, itupon ramai2 and we don’t chat that much… i just say hi when i arrived at the cafe and bye when i left to home… but last night he buzzed me at YM and asked me

a friend of mine : kau nak bayar bill apa?
me : kenapa? kau nak tolong bayarkan ke? *gurau kering di pagi buta*
a friend of mine : bak account number kau, aku dah bukak maybank2u nih
me : err.. sila la beli baju, jgn kasik aku segan boleh tak
a friend of mine : apa nak segan.. what comes around goes around…
me : *aku bagi account number because i have this thought that he just joke around nak buat kelaka di pagi pagi buta*

a friend of mine : ok dah transfer sila pergi bayar bill

i was speechless and i can’t explain in words… oh dear… aku mmg tak sangka…

me : kenapa kau baik sangat?
a friend of mine : pergi bayar bill kau...

terima kasih kawan… nanti kalau grobok dah bukak aku kasik kau baju ye… kira kau beli baju dari aku la jugak ok…

pengajaran : kadang2 org yg kita tak brp kenal lagi baik dari org yg kita sgt sgt kenal dan kita ingat dia sgt baik *kenyit mata*


{please help me to pay my bills}


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{help!}...

my dear blog;

the truth is, i'm freaking broke... please help me to pay my bills...

{enter}

thanking you in advance :)



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green + yellow...

my dear blog;

"There is always the dream. It is that you will conquer your fears, and when it matters most you will find power you never had before." Ronaldo

yup! i never show that i have interest in football… i also not a sports channel subscriber with astro as i dun like to waste my money on the expensive pkg price... (mamak at cyber is the one who pay my sports channel now *wink*)


BUT! deep inside in my heart i’m a fan of brazil!…
go BRAZIL!! may the force be with you!!

samba!

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if there’s a rewind button...

my dear blog;

date: 20th July 2009
i should turn the switch off from the beginning…



note:memangsayaseorangyangberkira!dude!youdisgustme!



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just think about it...

my dear blog;

when you feel lost, just close your eyes and think about the happy moment... it's just a bliss...

:)


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picture o'rama..

my dear blog,

dah lama blog ni takde gamba kan?


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obsolete container...

my dear blog;

{you = right click + delete}

well, it's between you and god now
i'm gonna stop asking and talking...



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in my shoes....

my dear blog;

"so you think you'd like to be in my shoes

would you like to try and walk a day in mine?"

+anouk - my shoes+

yup! just try to be in my shoes...

i dun like to nag to other people about my problems... but lies after lies been revealed... and all the stories that i've heard been told about me, i couldn't just keep quiet and let it be... i need to clean my name and stand up for myself... do you think i like to burden other people with my issues?, of course not... all this while i just kept quiet and pretend that i didn't know everything in front of you... do you know how hard i try to hide the pain?... but when it keeps coming i guess other people will do the same... just try to be in my shoes and you will know...

i know you are in the 'la la land' now... and you have other important things to think but i have mine too, other things to think... but when all the lies and stories have been revealed, i bet you will do the same... i just a human being and not a wonder woman... i dun have strong shield ...

just try to be in my shoes...



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alhamdulillah...

my dear blog;


:)



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a note to myself...

my dear blog;

"buat baik berpada - pada..." [senyum]

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it's just another chapter, dun close the book yet, just turn the pages :)

my dear blog;

"bangun fara! jangan tido lagi!!!"

hectic! the only word to explain what is happening along the week... kesibukan di office yang tak pernah ada button pause... the competition to be a better staff buat otak aku jadi penat, kadang2 tak terkejar... tapi selagi ada peluang aku akan cuba sehabis baik...

ye saya sudah pulang ke malaysia... dah 1 week dah... everything was amazing... the priceless experience that i couldn't pay...

balik2 dari cuti mcm2 benda terjadi... but i guess itu semua dugaan dugaan dari tuhan yg perlu aku tempuhi satu, satu... takpe... it's just a phase for me to be a better person... a lesson to be learnt... aku pernah hadapai benda lagi besar dari ini, tapi aku mampu go through every single bit of it and i know this time aku juga boleh... dugaan dugaan ni buat aku lebih bersedia dan lebih matang *senyum* dun get me wrong i'm not pointing my finger to anyone it's just a note to myself...

at this point, i just want to be a good daughter to my mom and dad, a daughter to be proud of... it's time to push the 'stop' button... enough with the worthless fun, it's time for me to focus for my future... i have carrier, i have important business project and other priority to think of... i dun need other distraction to make me weak...

saya nak jadik anak yang baik untuk abah dan mak saya dan kawan yang di sayangi di kalangan kawan kawan saya... kalau semua itu termakbul saya dah tak perlu apa apa dah *senyum*



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