back to the la la land...

my dear blog,

when I open my email today, at the inbox indicator shows that there’s one unread email… but when I check at the first page of the email list all has been read… ahhhh, must be spam mail… biasa nya mmg cenggitu, tetiba ada terselit selit tgh2 the outdated email… so i click at the very 1st page where the 1st email received was there… here goes the memory lane… without me realize, i started to read the email one by one… it’s starts from the happy moment until the ‘so not happy moment’… daripada ‘aku’ , ‘kau’ sampai la ke ‘the special name :)’… but yeah, all those memories had taught me what the real life is… but honestly I miss all the good things with that email sender… I hope you are doing well out there… and good luck with everything dear friend… *smile*


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freaking climax!!! [II] ...

my dear blog;

MONO, was fucking awsome!!! a good opening from deepset is a plus... yup! MONO was superb! a worth show to go... and... Yoda, i love you! ngeeeeeeeee!!!


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ka+nga+roo...

my dear blog;

someone texted me from bali... told me bout all the good things during the vacation and now he's at the airport... waiting... for boarding... to jakarta!!!... okeh! i'm bloody jealous... how i wish i could leave my work at office and fly there... ah, nevermind... May is coming anyway... and here goes my turn... and i'm starting to be a huge fan of kangaroo and koala now! hahahahha!!!


nota kaki: i'm+in+love+with+the+cd+that+u+left...



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this is how it works...

my dear blog;



"This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath"

- Regina Spektor [On The Radio] -


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!

my dear blog;

what i feel right now, i couldn't translate in words... i can't imagine that u have this idea to label me as 'that'... how i wish i have this apportunity to slap your face damn fucking hard so that you will wake up and realise that what u have done was extremely bad... i try so hard not to hate you... but i guess this time i fail... i'm fucking trust you, and always support you when u need one... but it seems all of them are just a fucking junk to you... if your fucking 'pride' and 'status' are more important, then you can go to the fucking hell!!!


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starry night..

my dear blog;

i put the nicest dress...
had dinner at the nicest place...

happy birthday to you...
a post birthday celebration...

and i know u try to be nice yesterday...
and i would like to say thank you...

happy belated birthday dear, may all ur dreams come true...



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here goes my first cry for 2010…

my dear blog;

location : office
reason : stress with work... the expectation is ridiculous... the humiliation is so unacceptable...

*sigh*

all i need now is Swanson’s ice cream :(



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on the jet plane...

my dear blog;

i'm off to singapore until Sunday... have a great weekend!!! :)


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respect and trust...

my dear blog;

+ everyone needs somebody to respect and trust,
but can your friends always respect and trust you? +

respect and trust, two major things that are really important in any kind of relationship, among friends, among lovers, among parents, among siblings... once they ruined the trust that you gave, it will impact the quality of 'respect' as well... without respect and trust, the ‘relationship’ itself will be a totally bullshit… just think about it...

note: quote (edited) via toasterpeanutbutter


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a sad week [II] ...

my dear blog;

it's a sad sad sad week for me... like a seriously sad... the kinda sad that i couldn't explain in words... the inner feeling that i can't show with my face expression... the feel is so damn deep... that i couldn't reach to cure it... what am i doing all this while... i put myself to a place that i should not be... i hope this gonna be gone soon... as faster as the wind blow... without me notice that it's over, full stop, a dot... all i need to know, when i wake up, i already at the different world with a different new life...

+ i'm at the freeway now... it's up to me to turn to which exit... +

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a sad week...

my dear blog;

it's a sad week to me...

semoga roh wan (nenek) berada di tempat org2 yg beriman... *amin*...


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the ugly truth is

my dear blog;

i was born to be a savior and my middle name is

+ s a c r i f i c e +

A sacrifice you make today
Will never ever be gone
A sacrifice you make today
Will soon be passed on

A sacrifice you make today
Will stay in many hearts
A sacrifice you make today
Help many play their parts

A sacrifice you make today
Will never be forgotten
A sacrifice you make today
Will never be mistaken

A sacrifice you make today
May even change history
A sacrifice you make today
May be kept in someone’s memory

A sacrifice you make today
Might light someone’s day up
A sacrifice you make today
Might fill someone’s dry cup

A sacrifice you make today
Will always be treasured
A sacrifice you make today
Will always be remembered

note: poem via Anders Lim

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mumbling the mumble...

my dear blog;

kerja...

semakin strict, semakin stress... setitik silap pon takbleh nak kompromi... hari hari balik rasa risau, kalau kalau esok ada silap yang dijumpa... sejak dua menjak rasa mcm hati tak tenang, kenapa eh?... kerja kah?... entah la...

high expectation...
aku pada diri sendiri, takut tak tercapai jek... nanti mesti sedih...

a good listener...
that's what i need now... are you?

:(


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a reminder for you...

my dear blog;

+ saya mau ini untuk ulang tahun saya yang bakal tiba +

"please... please... pleasssseeeee..." hahahahha!

note:lagu nih dah berada dlm kepala sejak beberapa minggu yang lalu... adehh!



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i was born to be a miss take...

my dear blog;

+ the sky belongs to the stars +

note: picture via LoMo

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bila dah mula bercakap dengan dinding....

my dear blog;

agak stress dengan kerja... kalau dulu ada je biro pengaduan yang setia dengar rungutan rungutan aku... cakap la pasal apa, dia akan dengar, response lepas tuh buat lawak sengal... walaupun aku call lewat malam, tapi itu dulu, beberapa tahun dulu, jadi tak perlula ungkit citer dulu... gile tak best...

seriously, dua tiga menjak ni aku rasa mcm tak larat... tgk surat2 komitmen minta di totalkan jumlah angka angka... itu tak kira yg bakal di tambah untuk tahun depan... haish... aku pernah berbual pasal tujuan berkerja dengan a friend of mine... kita kerja untuk bayar komitmen, kita kerja utk kurangkan jumlah angka yang kita perlu hadap setiap bulan... sampai bila?... puaskah dengan kerja kita sekarang? tentula tak puas... manusia itukan dilahirkan dengan rasa yang tak pernah puas... lepas satu satu yang di mahu... tapi seriously aku pernah terfikir utk migrate... cuma tak cukup guts aja... dulu, 2 tahun dulu hampir dapat, interview sampai 5 level, sampai ke level 5, entah mana silapnya kompeni tuh senyap jek... kalau tak dah di UK aku... mungkin aku buat tak sepenuh hati sebb fikirkan pasal org lain... haish... dah! jgn nak salahkan org...

2010? sudah dilevel manakah aku?... kerja? life? aku rasa dah sampai masa untuk rangka strategi baru... kena rombak semua benda... dah la baik tido melalut sampai ke pagi pon tak guna... esok ada 2 extraction, tak tau mcmana nak layan dengan system yang slow mcm siput, opis jek baru kaler purple bagai... tapi... haishhhhh... esok kena semangat berlebihan... bak kata biro pengaduan aku dulu "hadapi dengan senyuman"... aku tau, cliche kan? bosan...


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between those lines...

my dear blog;

i’ve been nice these days… not taking seriously about everything that i saw and knew… so i choose to keep it to myself and give you time to open your mouth and tell me what had happen actually or what’s happening now… because i know making assumption is not good at all… and i want to hear it from you, yourself… not from other people and not from that bloody world wide web…

one day we need to have a serious talk about this… until now, neither me nor you, know what we are doing right now…

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if i just have another 1 day...

my dear blog;

(500) days of summer... i'm so in LURVE with that movie... and i have my own reason for that... other than that, the soundtrack... yang rata rata berlatar belakang kan the smiths... sangat lazat... sedang sibuk dengan kerja yang memenatkan... tiada masa nak browse for the full track of the soundtrack... ada yang sudah ketemu? share la link...

"do you like me? like me as friend? just friend? i like you, and i would like to be your friend..." - (500) days of summer

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the dilemma of being repulsed...

my dear blog;



everhear the expression "damned if you do, damned if you dont?" ... it's the dilemma of being repulsed by something and attracted to it at the same time... like with coffee... people drink it for the taste, the buzz, the sensation of holding a warm mug in their chubby little hands, or even because sipping the stuff makes them feel intellectual... some people can't even begin their days without it... but there's the downside... caffein headaches when they don't get enough, yellowed teeth if they drink to much... it's a turn-on and an aggraution all at once... sort of the things that we know if we keep on doing it over and over again, it will cause you trouble... but deep inside you are in denial... and you know u will get hurt one day... and you keep repeating the same mistakes again... and because i have this stupid dumb ass brain... and i'm not smart enough to think or maybe... maybe i refuse to think... i keep on drinking 'caffein'...

yup!... guys, 'caffein' is not good for your health...

trust me!



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honey in the sun ...

my dear blog;

:)



camera obscura
honey in the sun...


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